JackieRB2007

What is it to lose? What is it to gain? How do we have anything left at all? This life is a struggle, a pain to get up at times. It hurts so much to be here to live a life worth anything at all. I wish I could say it's easy to live but it honestly isn't. Existing is the most difficult thing one can manage to do. I'm truly in awe of the fact that I can muster the strength to get out of bed at times, I'm shocked at what it takes to put both feet on the ground and to stand up and face the world. No one will ever truly know the struggle you go through each day and what demons you fight to force that smile you fake to the rest of the world. Looking like you care is a strength all on it's own I must admit. How well do you know me? How can you tell what matters to me? Do I care what matters to you? Probably not, I feel I must confess that pretending to care is a struggle all on its own. I do want to care about what you care about, I promise I do. Years of being broken have taught me not